Friday, March 28, 2014
It's a Friday nite, and about 10:30 PM, so lets throw up yet another depressing I hate the world post!
Apparently it's the week for things to go...weird. Yeah weird. Let's go with the word weird. It's not like they went wrong, or right. They went weird. Apparently I lost some friends, and it made me feel like I did something wrong, but I know I didn't. I also gained some friends. I've learned to be myself more and more recently, and it's played well in my favor.
The friends that I've lost...well when I'm around these people I'm pretty sure we got along. I know I'm sarcastic at times. Well, whatever I guess I just need to let it go. People have issues, not me. I need to really remember that. Well, wait that's not totally true either. I totally have my issues. However, most people don't even know about those issues. I keep them to myself.
I can't decide what I want to do with my "big" blog. Do I want to continue it? Or should I just quit and start doing things for fun again? I can't figure it all out. Some of the friends I've made blogging are cool. Some of them, I could just go on in my life without them. Yes, that seems mean. Really, really mean. But, it's true.
I think that's all for right now, because I don't know what to say. I feel like I already went thru a re-evaluation of life and all this just 2 months ago. Now I find myself here again, and going thru it with friends. Fun times. Fun, Fun times!
Thursday, January 30, 2014
In the last 5 days, I put up 2 positive posts on my social media outlets. What happened to those things? Well they both turned negative.
Tell me how this is right? This is why I hate social media. People take the wrong thing out of what I post. I don't really understand why people do this. People make it all about them a lot of the time. We'll if you want to make it about you put something on your page. This is my page. It's about me.
Don't come to my page and offend me about something positive in my life. I don't want nor need that in my life.
I'm in charge of me. You're in charge of you.
There's a reason why I keep my friend circles small. People annoy me. Some people just can't take care of issues themselves. This last year I've made a ton of friends. I've grown a lot. It's made me realize that I can't take care of everyone's problems. We are in our 30 ' s now for the most part. It's time to handle life. If you don't start now...you will never do it.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
Since this is my space, I'm going to do it here. It's not meant to offend anyone, or call out anyone specifically. Most things I "whine" about a LOT of people do, not one person.
I can go about my life, and laugh my life away. I just want to be happy, and not feel like I'm trying to impress the rest of the world. Things have been really hard friendship wise, and getting people to understand me. I'm not a grumpy person. Just don't continually bug me. Get your life together! Get your priorities straight. PLEASE!!
Don't ask me to do everything. I will burn out. I will burn out with blogging, I will burn out on volunteering, I will burn out on our friendship. That would just SUCK! :)
I'm reading over an old blog that I used to actively keep up, before I moved over to here. WOW! I used to write well! I used to write a LOT. Blogging has turned into a terrible chore. Absolutely terrible.
I must revert back to the "good" blogging, and get my "new" friends learn the real me. I'm not some sugar coated nice person...that can occasionally be funny. Really I have a lot of pent up aggression.
Now here's the kicker. The same thing I complained about almost THREE!! years ago, people are still doing to me. Why does it get me so upset? Why do I still keep wasting my time doing it? It's not just one or two people, it's quite a bit. Maybe it's a couple people more than others, but I give advice non stop to most people and they keep asking for it, but they never give a damn to listen to me. I'm done doing it. I have my own life to live.
So from now on, when I meet up with friends, it'll simply be talking about positive things. Talking about only positive things going on in their life. Any thing negative I will tune out. If their grandma died, sure we can talk about it. I just don't want people bringing me down in my life anymore, and I don't want to be getting upset at people, and complaining passively agressively on twitter. So this is my action i'm taking on it.
My friends will understand.
Maybe they will understand my orneriness a little better. It's mostly cause I can't handle myself. I will stand up to people, and tell them NO! Don't talk to me about that.
Monday, January 20, 2014
There are few things that bother me. I'm sure I've posted about them before, but right now I want to talk about them.
1- People's annoying need to be right. I leave a bucket somewhere full of drinks for a luncheon. It wasn't where someone else wanted them. She moved the bucket literally 3 inches. It was in the middle of a huge room. How big of a difference is that 3 inches going to make? Honestly? All that it's going to do is eat at my insides. Some people have issues when they feel like their wrong about something. That's just one example. There's lots more.
2- Be respectful to everyone. We are for the most part equal. Every one you would interact with on a day to day basis is most likely the same as you. Just because they might not be as skinny as you or do their makeup the way that the world thinks...is no reason to treat them differently. If you want to treat them differently do it in a positive light. Don't look down on them. Don't boss them around. Don't think less of them. Chances are, they're so much better than you'll ever be and are probably a lot happier because they didn't spend 2 hrs caking their face in makeup or ignoring their kids working out for 4 hrs a day to weigh 115 lbs when they're 5 ft 9.
Am I bitter? No! Do I think I can change the world with 1 blog post? Absolutely not! I just think people are rude. I want to be respected. I deserve to be respected. I teach my children to respect all people no matter what. I was always taught to respect my elders. I wasn't taught to respect those younger than me that may be more successful than me. However lots of people younger than me are more successful than I am. I admire those people and long to have successes of my own one day. Successful people need to have respect for the people that help them get them where they are.
I don't want to be yelled at, talked down to, or have anything expected of me if that person talking to me isn't willing to do it themselves. Don't dish it out, if you can't eat off that plate.
I am a sensitive person when it comes to getting my feelings hurt, but I can also be rude to people at times. I don't like fake people. Don't be nice to me, because you think you have an image to uphold. You don't. If you don't like me, I don't care. I probably don't like you either! I'm a pretty good judge of character and know pretty fast if we will be friends or not.
All of this being said, I know that I can be a hurtful person in my words as well. It is something I have been working on for 2014. Know though, if you're continually acting a fool, you're setting yourself up and there's only so much I can take. Be true to who you are. Take care of your body. Take care of your brains. It's all you got. I've been so sick in the last 3 months it's really opened me up to this. Take care of it now. Get good habits now. Eat healthy now. Teach your kids young. I'm not an advocate for exercise or healthy eating. I'm just saying... take care of yourself. You're the only you, that you get.
...more to come. It's just 230 in the morning and I'm tired. And brain dead. I gotta take care me brain!
Friday, December 13, 2013
I don't know that I necessarily need to do that on my blog, but knowing that feelings could get hurt, could the wrong people get a hold of my thoughts and take them the wrong way, I should put a filter on it. Think of Beyonce's tune, "Single Ladies" Put a Ring on it...then think of me singing, "put a filter on it." Whatcha think? :)
I can't figure out what I want to do. Should I continue blogging? I've made some decent money blogging recently. Gotten some perks, free stuff etc. Made a few friends. Are they fake? Are they real? That's left to be undetermined so far. One blog, I thought was gonna be awesome, and I got a ton of followers, and things were going great. Thought I was gonna have help. Then I didn't. I'm 98% sure I'm just gonna shut it down. If I can change the name on it, I will just change the direction of it, and make it something for me.
I started into this blogging world as a way for me to have something to do. I don't know what I thought my expectations were. I had no idea how big things were. There are so many things. So many people. So many people think that they are a blogger. It's kind of funny. Some people are too into it, and it make me sick. Those people make a butt load of money for just saying a company's name, and it's not fair. They just got lucky. Those people are not nice to the tiny little bloggers like me. It's all clique-y and that's lame. Makes me feel like I'm in high school.
I just want to be everyone's friend. I don't want people to feel left out. I've been one to feel left out for years. Is it how I dress? Is it cause I don't wear 10 lbs of make up? Is it cause I'm fat? Or is it cause I don't wear a tacky scarf or funky ugly headwrap? I don't want to change who I am to fit in. I don't need the newest fashions or things to fit in. I do however, need people to be nice to me AND everyone. People should stop excluding others.
I know I have friends who are friends with others, and when they are around certain people, they'll ignore me. Makes me sad/upset. I don't understand why I'm still friends with them, and put forth effort in that but I do.
Sorry my thoughts are sporadic, but I have so many. I enjoy what the last year of being in this blogging world has given me. I'm toying with the idea of giving up a lot of it. I feel like I'm in it for the wrong reasons. I have put in SOOO many hours of learning so many logistics of blogging that I feel like I HAVE TO stay in it. I know more about social media than a normal person should. I know more dos and don'ts for blogging than I should. I do more don'ts than dos. Out of pure laziness. I need to be better about that.
For now, I have a lot of Companies that emailed me and asked me to review their services/products so I will finish them out, but that may be it for a while. I don't know. I feel like I'm going a little crazy doing too many things. I love the money, but know that there has to be another way. Focus more on content, and maybe do ad's or find a service/product that I can do. I'm terrible at stuff.
My purple Cricut died again. I Love my cricuts. I'm really missing having my big Cricut though. I have 2 brand new large 12x24 mats and haven't been able to use it but once, cause my machine is just terrible. It's purple with pretty designs on it. My "contact" at cricut says he can't help me til February. Argh. I do LOVE my Cricut Mini though. That machine has seen so much use. I've used the crap out of 4 of the mats. I was using glue-dots to make the paper stick it was so bad. I'm almost all done with a 5th mat. The Mini is my 3rd machine. I've had it almost a year now, and I've never used that many mat's. I've had a cricut since 2007 or 2008, I think. I think it's because of the Cricut Craft room, and having access to so many images. Definitely a lot better than having to get all those cartridges! I just want my big Cricut so I can cut bigger things!! I need to organize my craft room. One day. One day. I really want a peg board to hang things up.
I'd like to post more things on here, but I never really know what to say...I do have some sites that have prompts, so maybe i'll start there.
Til then, later gators! ;)
Monday, October 28, 2013
I know that I had an experience from one person (or 5), that made me question my character and who I was in my life. It wasn't exactly ME who needed to change. It was who, I was hanging out with that I needed to change. I tried not to let these peoples actions hurt my feelings. Tried to say that it was their loss and all that. For the most part I was able to!
Sometimes you have to be willing to make a change in what you want in life. I wanted to (after that point), live a more positive life. Make a more positive input on other's lives, or not be apart of it all. I don't have time, patience or a desire for negativity. Now that certain people are out, more happy is in, and that's better for me. If you're a full grown adult, but act like you can't do anything for yourself, and have someone else basically run your life. People that lie, or hang out with liars suck. If you don't have decent standards or if any of the above apply to you. I'm not the friend for you. Sorry.
On another note.
A year ago, I was shy, a little introverted and didn't know too much about blogging, or anything that the blogging world had to offer. Seriously. Now I've jumped in, head first and know so much. I'm excited to learn about all their is to offer! I don't know that I've ever been so excited to learn things. I've earned money, I've gotten free product & I've made awesome friends. A year ago, I would've never walked up to someone and said...Hey, I'm Aimee! I still won't wear a name tag... but at least now I'll go somewhere alone, and talk to stranger.
However, the BEST part about this last year is that I have found myself. Again. I know that I used to say I did things, cause it was the "cool" thing to do at the time. Like, I used to say I was a scrapbooker, cause it was the cool thing to do. Well, then someone gave me a bunch of scrapbooking supplies, so I figured it out. Then that became my thing. That was like 14 years ago. Then I started college, and working full time etc...and met my husband, and somewhere in the interim became someone else.
I don't think I like who I was in that time. It's been about 8-10 years. In that time I've gone thru some enormous trials. Well, I'd like to say that I'm in the clear of them, but I know better. I'm not. However, since I feel that I've found more of myself again, I know that I can get thru them just a little easier.
I need to try and remember to only do things because I want to. Only get things cause I need them. (Save money) I have so many things in my house, that I don't need these days, but once upon a time, I thought I needed/wanted and it's just taking up space.
At the same time, I need to remember to take chances. Don't hold back too much. I may never know what's out there if I don't look around the corner.
I think that I like this person that I've become. Or re-become. However you want to look at it. Now if I could just be as skinny as I was in high school. HaHa. This post could probably go in a million different ways, and be a million posts long. But that's the basics of it. Hmmpf. End of Story for today. Only the people that know me, understand me. I totally feel like I'm different than I was a year ago. I know so much more about so many things, and have this strong desire to know so much more. I had a swift kick in the pants to change a year ago. Even though I did nothing wrong...it was the other "parties" I just knew that I needed different surroundings. I got it! Woot!!